Looking back...phew...!!!

Tired...!!!
Exhausted!!!
I was sitting in the chair outside my office waiting for the10 PM cab...
First time in the past twenty days I got some time free to actually think about something...
All I can remember for these 20 days is work, work and more work and its pretty amusing that I managed to squeeze a Banglore trip in between...!!!
It all started when unexpectedly a lot of work came in office and me and my teammates had to work like hell to meet up with the deadlines...still it was fun when we worked away at our systems, typing furiously or just staring at the monitor, trying hard to think of something, scratching our heads with funny expressions forming on our exhausted faces... Occasional funny film dialogues, singing and music all added spice to the situation and even though it was hectic I enjoyed thoroughly because I didn't get time to think of anything else...and it somehow gave me some peace after so many days... :)
In between there was our DM's farewell and I was one among the organisers and I got to relive what I was during college days...I got to experience a bit of my old 'me' because after college I have never conducted any events...initially when I was asked to conduct the farewell I was not so much interested but after I finished it, i felt as if I'm getting a bit of the old me... :)
And in between all this, a Banglore trip happened...
Which made it all the more tiring...but again this tiredness is somehow masking the pain inside which I will have been experiencing for almost one year...

Prayers

When all of you are praying for me
With all your hearts
How can God walk past
Without wiping my tears... :)

Searching for answers...

I looked up at the night sky at the pale moon and scattered clouds with tears welling up in my eyes. I always used to do this in my childhood when I was hurt badly. I used to feel like God is looking down upon me from somewhere up in there. The knowledge that I'm having a glimpse of the stars whose light is reaching my eyes after travelling millions or billions of light years and that I'm having a vision of the past made me reflect on the wonders of the universe and about the power that we address as God...
I felt protected whenever I looked up in there. Night sky used to motivate me, inspire me and strangely gave me a sense of inner peace.
But today nothing helped. The pale moon and scattered clouds along with occasional mild lightning made me feel like I'm looking at a symbolic replica of my own life at the moment, or rather what I'm feeling at the moment.
My life has reached such a turn today that I realised many things. Things that I thought were my biggest positives proved to be my biggest negatives. All the compliments I have received so far in my life flashed in my mind and I felt a strange sense of loss.
Where have I failed, what has happened, why even my noblest of intentions turned into something so bad...
Today I have to get the answers and move forward... To never turn back again...to never look back at the dark times...

Notebook by Nicolas Sparks...

Finished reading Notebook by Nicolas Sparks...
A wonderful love story... :)
And I think I read it at the right time...I read it and went to sleep peacefully after so many days...
I was once a Noah inside who enjoyed and cherished all the small things in life, who believed in all the goodness of the world, who could see beauty in anything and everything...

"If we never meet again and this is truly a good bye, I know we will see each other again in another life. We will find each other again, and may be the stars will have changed and we will not only love each other in that time, but for all the times we've had before..."

Beautiful lines... :)

A beautiful day...!!!

"A beautiful day is one where you do things coz you want to and not because you have to..."

Lessons... :)

I'm hurt,I'm heartbroken
But everything is not bad
Even in bad things
For I learnt a lot...
Lessons which are priceless
Lessons which no teacher taught...

Coz love for me is people... :)

If I had a choice I wish
If I had a choice I wish
I would have travelled far and wide
And befriended all the people out there
Coz' love for me is people
God's finest creations...